" we have to explore our own thoughts before exploring the woods,

understand our wants and needs before understanding the wind,

discover ourselves before dicovering the world " 

It's been such a long time since I blogged anything, it's been years. When was the last time I posted an entry? I can't even remember. 

Well, here's a quick update about my life.

I'm currently studying at East Central University, a nearly invisible university in a nearly invisible town named Ada. In case you don't know where Ada is, it's in the state of Oklahoma. And, I'm currently in a long-distance relationship with my boyfriend who's now studying in the University of Waterloo. And, I'm currently typing this while sitting alone in an empty cafe, with a mug of caramel macchiato clasped between my fingers and a half-eaten ham and cheese sandwich resting in a basket next to me. 

You must be wondering why I'm here alone. Well, let's just say everyone else has gone home for Christmas and I'm still stuck in this God-forsaken town with nothing but words to entertain me. I'm so glad that I'll be going to LA this Saturday - I can't wait! 

Okay, so you guys must be surrpised that I finally got myself a boyfriend, how in the world did this happen, you ask. I was brusque, desperate and stupid. A stupid young girl rushing into unfamiliar things, sailing into uncharted waters, stumbling upon a strange world of love and compromise. Don't get me wrong, our relationship was great. It started off great. We were both in love, and everyone said we were perfect for each other. I would always get butterflies when he looked at me in a certain way, I would always get excited when I received his texts, I would always wait for his replies even if it meant sacrificing my sleep. Things began going downhill ever since I came to the States.


I don't know why, but I just don't like talking to him as much as I used to. I find his texts annoying sometimes. I lie about not having a stable Internet connection to avoid Skyping with him everyday. I would rather lay on bed all day and rot in bottomless boredom than replying his texts. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?!?!

Sigh.

Okay, enough with the depressive news, let's have a change of topic. I've recently picked up water-coloring, it's time-consuming but really soothing. Earlier this morning, I trespassed a private golf course (it's located right beside my dormitory), sat on a patch of freshly trimmed grass under the sun for nearly 3 hours, painting. I have to admit, I'm not very good at it.




Have a great Christmas break everyone!